For those who don’t know me, I am a researcher. No, that is NOT my profession. It’s just what I do. Research, organize, and plan.
I research all sorts of random stuff: where I would live if I moved to San Diego, what restaurants in NYC are kid-friendly, new recipes that I can make in the crockpot, storage solutions for tv wires, and much much more.
I posted not long ago about my frustrations with changing lifestyle habits to no apparent avail. It was incredibly disheartening to know I was eating healthy and exercising daily and seeing no results. Two weeks passed and nothing, but around 3-4 weeks I finally progressed.
For those who don’t already know me, I am an Atheist. To some people, that word invokes a lot of negative emotions. I find that this is usually because it is so contrary to their own personal belief system that they have difficulty understanding and accepting it. While, I identify as an atheist, I consider myself a Secular Humanist.
I started walking 4-5 days a week. Approximately 2.5 miles each day. I started watching my calorie intake and making healthier food choices. By like so many women before me, I am finding almost no change in my body to reflect that. It’s frustrating!
I am not expecting a huge change right away, but some indicator that all the hard work is paying off. Instead, I step on my smart scale and see my body fat percentage has soared to the highest it has ever been! What!?!
I know I could be doing more to push that dial, but to have it not move at all the way I want it to is frustrating and disheartening. It makes me feel like all the effort has been for nothing
I have been working from home since January now and thought it was time for an update on that.
About a month ago, I was asked by my former company to work remotely for them (temporarily) while another admin was out on medical leave. So, for the past 4 week, I have occasionally been reviewing/editing reports for them in the interim. Depending on how long she is out, I will likely be helping them for another few weeks. It’s a good way to get some extra money in my pocket this spring since I don’t know how much freelance work I will have time for once summer vacation kicks in around mid-June.
A couple of years ago, I volunteered to be the chairperson the PTO Beautification Committee at my eldest son’s elementary school. I am the poster child for biting off more than I can chew, especially in an area where I have literally NO expertise. My skills lie in the organization, planning, and detailed checklists. Not in actually doing stuff like designing or creating spaces. So, for me gardening is a whole new world I don’t feel like I really understand or belong in.
I hear a lot of stupid stuff come out of people’s mouths about autism.
Ignorance is common, but when it’s mingled with and effort to console, reassure, or commiserate…it often becomes unbearable! Yes, you probably mean well, which is why I haven’t brought it up before. You likely want to help support me and my family, which is great. I just wish you knew how the things you say and post often make me cringe.
Here are the top kinds of statements that make me want to punch you in the face (and why):
“People don’t live in a big, scary world; they live in small scary worlds, one accident away from losing everything.”
— Henry Jackson, in “Raptor Ray” by B. Reilly
While I would not personally recommend this book, this particular quote in it really resonated with me. So often, we look at life through our own fears and apprehensions. In many ways our fears (and how we face them) define us.
Everyone has their own preferences for things, but I thought I would share some of mine, because that’s how they became my favorites. Someone once shared an item that they liked with me, so I tried it. If I liked it, it then joined my list. Maybe it will also join yours.